The video which is going to play inside the chest of the sculpture is now ready. The idea behind including a video was born after considering the safety options of having an open fire (candle) during an actual event. Thanks to the video the process of melting – which represent the process of creating – is captured and processed to show fragments to the visitors. It is short and it is going to be put on loop during the showcase.
Reviewing the finalising steps after the last tutorial has brought me to the moment now when I can share the complete look of each piece of my project. To begin with the booklet – once the design was approved the sheets were printed and I started to build them into books: resizing, cutting, folding each sheet and gluing them to one another. I also resized the encaustic cards I had already have and reshaped a hand painted silk scarf into several small samples. The next thing was to make the glass painting and the wood burned piece of art which took longer than expected. To complete the booklet I made a cover which was like a box and add small magnet to keep the close.
The idea behind the booklet is to have something written which will give insights about the process of making of the sculpture (and not only the sculpture). I cannot imagine that booklet structured as academic piece of work like short dissertation or something, neither as personal journal of my daily/weekly tasks and accomplishments.
I’d rather imagined it like fragments, highlights which follow one after another, revealing my engagement more like the layers of a cabbage and not like linear story narrative. When I am writing usually I am trying to put my thought into complete sentences, but the truth is that most of the time I would just write a few words and dot, dot, dot.
The most difficult part of building my sculpture was to balance it. I decided to make it of two parts – a base (the legs) and head and chest with hands which connect them with the legs. However, while making the wire armature and then applying the clay I wasn’t really able to figure out how much material and how to position it in order to make it stay by itself.
I thought that it is going to be enough just to stick the two parts with some extra clay. Is there a hidden meaning behind that? Probably. I don’t know. If I have to speak about myself I wouldn’t say I am balanced person, just the opposite – I am doubtful, my moods change with the speed of a flashlight, my life views could seem controversial and it is perfectly normal for me to be in a conflict with myself (actually only then I feel that I am accurately expressing what I think and feel).
During a tutorial today I shared the updated vision of the sculpture and discussed why I would like to make it this way. The solid look I did not like it because it looked too concrete and not so human I guess; the idea to use wire developed in the process of making while I was building the armature and that gave me insight of how it is going to look.
I thought it won’t be able to communicate the idea of the dissolving body, the passing life, the mortality of the human being and on the other side what is left behind him – the things we are creating during our life represent us and serve as mark so other can remember us.
Here we go! Following from the first sketches and confirming the idea so far during the tutorial few days ago I am finally starting it. Ugh, that is so exciting! And I am glad to be excited as I am aware it is going to have downward moments.
My first steps were to build an armature which I am going to use under the clay – this way I will use less material and the final piece will be lighter. Another good point of building an armature is that it will give me an idea how it is going to look like in the three dimensional space rather than just sketching it on paper.
Now when we have finished with our modules, the film festival is over as well as the postdigital exhibition during our media showcase, it is time to sit down and rethink everything about the project so far.
On another meeting with my academic tutor we discussed some of the issues I had in mind. There were some worries about the output of my project mainly around its public distribution. The initial idea was to create the sculpture, make the booklets and present it on a collaborative event, like a workshop, where people will be able not only to explore my work but also to create something by themselves.
The sense of touch… even though human beings’ most dominant sense is vision thanks to which we gather around 80% of the information, the sense of touch has deeper engagement with the world around us and most of us will say they would rather believe if they can touch and not only see something.
When exploring the craftsmanship our sense of touch is linked to ‘magical properties’ in the Middle Ages; Christians believe that obsession with material gets the person closer to timeless inner life; the craftsman is also a symbol for enlightenment as he is learning by doing and showing rather than telling. The skills developed in the process of making are difficult for explicit explanation. The unspoken knowledge, also called tacit knowledge, lies on the border line between everyday conscious little movements and routines and unconscious guidance how material should be treated.
Sometimes it is truth to be said that ideas come out of nothing, although most of the time we are consciously trying to come up with one. In my case it was some kind of combination between these two – I had good thought about what I would like to create in general; however, the detailed picture had strike me one evening. That is another aspect I found quite peculiar – that all creative thinking happens late, in the small hours of the day; it is a cliché and for me does not make sense because the mind gets tired during the day dealing with different people and situations, the last thing to think about before going to bed is creative ideas. So, below are few bullet points of the sculpture idea so far.